why oh why

it is an observation i have, that some women *like* to be pitied and emotionally abused. it gives them a sense of martyrdom. (in a less exalted verbiage, they adore S&M of the emotional nature)

because if they did not, what other possible reason would be to sigh and say "oh but he loves me i am sure he will change" and go back to the vapid and hurtful situation that is their relationship?

before the Feminists get on my case , let me point out to my defense, that i do not do anything of the above nature, preferring to remain single in the ghastly nightmarish belief that a relationship will cause me to transmogrify into this Hyde-ian (sic?) aberration myself.

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i believe that while its not EASY getting out of abusive relationships, inspite of all the wellmeaning galpals and the (rare cases) well meaning elders, the ONLY person to get you out of an abusive relationship is yourself, because at the end of the day it is YOU who have to say "Enough is enough, i will NOT put up any more" and walk out.

contrary to popular thought

i do not particularly *love* listening to you whine about your loser, no good , emotionally dead/emotionally abusive boyfriend.

what i detest even MORE is you turning around and telling me "when are you getting married?" and reply "such a great guy like you shouldnt be single!"with a (internal) roll-of-eyes.

if i was so great how come a nice girl like him STILL goes back to abovementioned creep at the end of the day?

hey, i dont diss your relationship. just because i dont want to end up like abovementioned creep, doesnt mean i *LIKE* being single?

nowadays i am being more blunt with you about him. not because i want to be your rebound guy.

but because i really, REALLY feel for you. in ways that do not involve me starting to hug and kiss you and take you out on dates.

if you are too blind to see the above fact, i know i am better off than you.

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law of statistical volume (or some such) .... the more girls i see, the more likely i am to find someone i like who is NOT taken.

and where , pray tell , am i to find someone of said nature ?

over two months

if anyone read this blog, it would matter much.

but since no one does,it really doesnt.

of late, going over the past few posts, it strikes me as being plain whiny. this blog showcases my darker side, not my whiny one.

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probably i have said this before , but corporate life (atleast in my limited and thoroughly uneasy interaction with it) is nasty.

people really ARE a whole lot like you see in the Dilbert cartoons.

example: i am supposed to do something for which i need certain pieces of equipment. also i am supposed to hold some amount of knowledge for the same.

i am told that the piece of equipment cannot be used because it has a limited user license. ha ha. you are earning XYZ amount of money on this project and y oucant invest the amount of money to get ONE MORE LICENSE?

so all right i get myself adjusted to getting said piece of equipment set up in a way that doesnt violate the license terms. but the OTHER pieces of equipment are to take some big paperworky document filled by the boss' boss' boss' boss.

i just give up.

i am confused over whether to laugh maniacally or just stare in shocked wonderment at the absolute INSANITY that goes on behind the facade of "Quality Work".

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