i love autosaved drafts.
read another blogger who was wondering why the blog she wrote should be read. i wrote a comment that was almost a post.
i find myself doing that more often nowadays. reacting to others' opinions more than generating some of my own. probably the reason why i only return here once every month or so (moth is a weird typo - reminds me of the Mothman Prophecies - a weird story )
psychotic lovers - like the one who stabbed his girl on a busy road near Mumbai. as predicted a large crowd never reacted. no one wants to get involved with the paperwork. the photographs in the Times Of India are gruesome. as is the act. why do some girls (note NO generalisation here!) want to end up with such losers? just because they are VISIBLE? im not that (Visible , not yet a loser , although in my darkest hours my id echoes this back - You're a Loser man , you lose all the girls you fall for to other men).
yet the whole act of fighting for , or over a girl, really is tragic. if a girl chooses someone else over you, obviously its the grand schema of the universe , survival of the fittest (note John Abraham and not Rajpal Yadav) and propagation of the best.
i think the scariest possibilities are borne through by losers who wield power. maybe its their latent desire to carry out retribution against all those who have visited real or imagined wrongs upon them (that was NOT even a coherent sentence!)
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the reason why i do not write very frequently here is that i think most of my enraged posts sound boringly similar. i cant imagine typing out post after post, which sound almost the same, bar a few sentences.
and baring souls is probably as unappetizing as dropping ones pants in public.
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its always iffy with women/girls [- of course there is a difference between the two... a sarcastic gimboid (thanks Red Dwarf!) that i worked with shortly laughingly told me the crass difference.]
anyway ... the point i seek to make - if the girl/woman in question is single, she WILL be snapped up by some loser or better guy (need to put this in also, as not all of the girls/women i know have total losers as bfs/fiances/hubbies). if the girl/woman in question is newly bereft of loser bf, then its rather a dicey issue to make my own case. mainly because QUITE DEFINITELY the said girl/woman has NEVER seen me in that sort of light and will be disgusted/shocked/horrified to find that a heart exists beneath this Quasimodean/Grim exterior. [yes , whoever reads this , sorry to break your ideal dream - SHREK is not always true, thats why its a STORY! do any girls choose to go live in a SWAMP?]
i am sure (as most people i know) that there's someone i will eventually end up with ... but the sheer statistics of the number of people i will have to interact with , and the timelines involved boggles the mind.
Time has always been my enemy , with specific regard to this ...
